got up this morning, got out of bed into my car don't know where i'm going, just know that i'm not going far look up at the stars in the sky and i see your face don't know why but i stop for a minute and gaze 'cause you know that we're not the lucky ones, and that's okay and i don't know where we're going, or if i should really stay 'cause i don't know what closure is, but i might find out in the end, we'll keep breathing, i'm filled with doubt you put me off course, off track, derailed me like a freight i wanna run away, but i get the feeling it's too late but that's okay, i didn't like my old life anyways take it and break it and leave me, here in this place 'cause you know that we're not the lucky ones, and that's okay and i don't know where we're going, or if i should really stay 'cause i don't know what closure is, but i might find out in the end, we'll keep breathing, i'm filled with doubt ooh, ooh, that's not true at least not to me is it to you? don't know where else to come from, don't know what else to say with all our cards out on the table, i'll put 'em down another way 'cause my car smells like you, and i don't wanna get food, for the fear that that will go away so i sit in my room, and I'm alone in the gloom, cause i'm holding out to love you another day and i'm not OTP, but I'm trying my best i've read enough head canon to fill my chest and if my heart is a kickdrum, then you're an M9 i feel punch drunk around you can you tell me the time? 'cause i'd be lying if i said that i wasn't in love and i'm dying just to say that i can't get enough and i'm sorry that i couldn't be better and i'm sorry that i suck at saying things so we have to keep going and fucking doing this! and i don't know where we're going, but I know that i will stay and i don't know what closure is, but i might find out in the end, we'll keep breathing, i have no doubt

my darling Emily you're a pure hearted girl i'm gonna show you the world that's what I said hide it in boxes and behind hotel doors i fall through the floor and come out all clean but I know, oh, that it's not for the best and I know, oh, that I'm gonna have to rest but all of my friends aren't enough like me! my darling Emily something's not right it's a sign of the times that's what you said should I feel hopeless? or should I feel dread? when it's all in my head i can't break free but I know, oh, there's things I can't change and I know, oh, that I'm acting the same but all of my friends aren't enough like me! all of my friends are just like me hopeless, dead ends in this dead city if I never see you again, I won't be soothed i'm drowning in dysphoria, I've got nothing to lose ooh, ooh, I've got everything to lose! but if I can't stop feeling this way, then I just might! please answer me so I can sleep tonight! she's locked in my head and it's not alright! my darling Emily i'm a useless man and I can't pretend to be anything else

time is a wreck on the ocean i can't go through with my motions i hope we can make it, don't know what will break it i know you know that you make the call and then i'll take the fall and we're right back off track and time, after time you watch me die and try, as i might you can't see i'm one step closer to falling apart again the way i look, there is no other, ooh you're holding my heart again you, you and me we don't talk that often i know there really isn't that much to say but i hope we can say it cause i'm so frustrated at what we've come to my life is a hellhole of drugs and depression but that won't break you and time, after time you watch me die and try, as i might you can't see i'm one step closer to falling apart again the way i look, there is no other, ooh you're holding my heart again ooh, to the throws